1. |
Enough
03:19
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Am I Enough?
To create the world I want to see?
Am I Enough?
To Conquer the doubt inside of me?
Am I Enough?
To crush every opportunity?
Am I enough?
I am enough.
Fear creepin’ in but I won’t let it win.
Fear creepin’ in but I won’t let it win.
Mind ain’t listen so I said it again.
Body won’t move and the doubts sneakin’ in.
Pull myself together and I’m shiftin’ my mentality
Play life like a game that requires the right strategy, I
Want the outcome up to me, Increase the probability, see
Change as opportunity, and visualize my victory.
Am I Enough?
To create the world I want to see?
Am I Enough?
To Conquer the doubt inside of me?
Am I Enough?
To crush every opportunity?
Am I enough?
I am enough.
Fear creepin’ in but I won’t let it win.
Fear creepin’ in but I won’t let it win.
Mind ain’t listen so I said it again.
Body won’t move and the doubts sneakin’ in.
Don’t curse your worth by being risk averse, tell me what is
Worse, working to extremes it seems to live a pipedream or the
Nightmare of scheming, to live in a mainstream
Dream that make you scream, till its cuts off your airstream.
Am I Enough?
To create the world I want to see?
Am I Enough?
To Conquer the doubt inside of me?
Am I Enough?
To crush every opportunity?
Am I enough?
I am enough.
Fear creepin’ in but I won’t let it win.
Fear creepin’ in but I won’t let it win.
Mind ain’t listen so I said it again.
Body won’t move and the doubts sneakin’ in.
[Sigh] I am enough
It’s tough, but doubt keeps me handcuffed.
It’s rough, but just like a diamond, the
Pressure and polish, will lead to me shining.
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2. |
Stranger
04:57
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Creep creep creep on my mind it’s a sign, somethings
Up to no good, a nefarious design, and my
Shine tends to blind while i’m steady on my grind but to-
Day i feel the shadow of a force I cannot find. Throwing
Shade that degrades my ambition, I’m amazed at the
Power of this feeling, hypnotic in it’s sway, I make a
Way through the darkness but the path become a maze, and a
Way that seemed familiar has me staring in a daze, I’m ap-
Palled after all, I spent my life standing tall, seeing
Over the walls put there to force a stall, ready to
Give my all, go harder after last call, but to-
Day if i should stumble I may surely fall, Rock of Gi-
Braltar falters and dissolved when I sought her, lost my
Sure footin’ when, I tried to walk on water, this force
Swallows my faith, a wraith that stealthily waits, for that
Moment to strike, and leave despair in it’s wake.
Each day I rise, I see a stranger in my place, who
Shares my eyes and he wears my face.
Each day I rise I see a stranger in my place. I’m
Searching for the man, this stranger replaced.
Each day I rise I see a stranger in my place. I’m
Feeling erased. I’m feeling erased.
Each day I rise I see a stranger in my place.
Each day I rise a see a stranger
Danger, danger, sinking deep and I’m drowning.
Anger, anger, this new feelin’s ungrounding
Stranger, stranger, creeps into your surrounding
Banger, banger, the creepin’s changed to pounding, as he
Assaults my mind, weakens my will and my drive, this stranger
Breaks into my home just to assert that he owns me, my
Sense of security becomes sweet distant memory, if i’m
not safe in my head and i’m not safe in my body, I’ll re-
Strict all my movements and confine where I tread. This stranger’s
Sowing his poison, watch his tentacles spread. A
Hostage to a sadness that I cannot explain, twenty
Three in the hole, o my soul, i’ll go insane, my brain
Cant sustain, all the strain from these chains, feel con-
Strained, inhumane, i’m detained, here again. What do i
Gain from this darkness, arctic winds with their harshness, man it
Feels so heartless, I reach up for catharsis.
Each day I rise, I see a stranger in my place, who
Shares my eyes and he wears my face.
Each day I rise I see a stranger in my place. I’m
Searching for the man, this stranger replaced.
Each day I rise I see a stranger in my place. I’m
Feeling erased. I’m feeling erased.
Each day I rise I see a stranger in my place.
Each day I rise a see a stranger
A story untold, when despair takes it’s hold, no
Words to describe what I’m feeling inside, if this was
Poker I’d fold, monopoly pay the toll, resigned to
Walking this line between downtrodden and fine. But
That’s not where the journey ends instead it begins, because I’m
Learning resilience and I’m rising again. Moti-
Vate and believe that I have something to give, remember-
Ing to honor our purpose each day that we live.
Each day I rise, I see a stranger in my place, who
Shares my eyes and he wears my face.
Each day I rise I see a stranger in my place. I’m
Searching for the man, this stranger replaced.
Each day I rise I see a stranger in my place. I’m
Feeling erased. I’m feeling erased.
Each day I rise I see a stranger in my place.
Each day I rise a see a stranger
Remembering to honor our purpose every day that we live
Remembering to honor our purpose every day that we live
Remembering to honor our purpose every day that we live
Remembering to honor our purpose every day that we live
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3. |
Open Your Eyes
04:50
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Open your eyes and see, What
Happiness is meant to be.
Letting go, and
being present, balanced and free.
Open your eyes and see, What
Happiness is meant to be.
Letting go, and
being present, balanced and free.
I,
used to care what people think, internalized inside of me, a
Detrimental quality, when it takes the place of being free.
Freedom to love the things I love, loving the things I want to do.
Doing the things that’s real and true, ‘cuz somethin’ inside me says that’s you. Cuz
Something inside me said that’s you! A voice that screams into the void.
Looking to find that self we void, a fraudulent check we want destroyed. An-
Achronistic out of place, like a self that feels so unaligned. A
Basic truth of human nature, follow the crowd’s our grand design.
Follow the crowd’s our grand design? We choose the crowd so we survive, we
Choose familiar to stay alive. We choose unique so we can thrive. Mis-
Stakinly synonymized, suvivings trying not to die. To
Thrive is showing up to fly. High High High High. Should
I do you or I do me? Or you do me or you do you? If the
Goal’s survive and not to thrive, then follow the crowd is what you do. But I
Wanna thrive, and I wanna fly, I Wanna fly and I wanna soar, my
Grand design is to be me, and Cruise the heaven’s like Thor.
Open your eyes and see, What
Happiness is meant to be.
Letting go, and
being present, balanced and free.
Open your eyes and see, What
Happiness is meant to be.
Letting go, and
being present, balanced and free.
Opened my eyes to me soaring soaring soaring after
Taking a leap, from another life story, I was free…
Like an Ohio player, open skies and possibilities as
I move through the air.
Priorities, have shifted from the ladder to the
love, no more rat race or chase unless I vibe with what a-
Bove, or the universe aligns, to give me a
Sign, that my divine order of steps leads to this ladder to
climb. Open my wing to cath the current current current. Getting
Lift from my dreams as I ascend above deterrents. At
Eighteen years old I had a ten year plan, If I
Follow this plan, the future’s wrapped like, saran. Go to
School graduate, be a doctor, make some money, but the
Best laid plans can miss the lessons of the jouney. A
Plan is meant to guide us be we dream outside the lines and we’ll
Never see those dreams if we’re confined.
Life,
Deals in hard lessons, but the hardest of them all, is to
Never compromise when they’re making you feel small, your con-
Viction is a sword, and your resilience is a shield, keep them
Enemies at bay, and slay those dragons in the field, let your
Light shine in their eyes, and you don’t apologize, cuz the
Light they get to see, is their blessing in disguise, praise the
Lord halleluiah, tell the saint sittin’ next to ya, that we
Out here saving souls, through our light hashtag goals.
Open your eyes and see, What
Happiness is meant to be.
Letting go, and
being present, balanced and free.
Open your eyes and see, What
Happiness is meant to be.
Letting go, and
being present, balanced and free.
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4. |
Music Man
04:17
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Ninety,
Four, Ninety five I brought the song flute to life, playing
Hot cross buns with a smile getting hype, cuz I
Saw seven keys with limitless possibilities, to
Make people groove their bodies move to the tune, to the
Sound of the music feeling so therapeutic, to
Create this moment with my mind, heart and hands, I couldn’t
Understand, but I was witnessin’ the
Birth of a passion seep into my glands, four dollar
Plastic fantastic, ecstatic practice fanatic, learning the
Magic and tactics to make my skills automatic. I
Graduated from the rhymes of nursery, slowly
Started learning musical ABCs. No more
Hot cross buns, no more row row your boat, playing the
Dip by Freak Nasty with a few simple notes. Kilo A-
Li’s nasty dancer just for show in the class. This love for
Music is something that will never pass.
Metamorphosis the name of the game.
When it comes to this music, it ex-
Cites, it delights, it ignites, gets me
Hype. When it comes to this music, ah
Ah. When it comes to this music.
When it comes to this music, it ex-
Cites, it delights, it ignites, gets me
Hype. When it comes to this music, ah
Ah. When it comes to this music.
Five year’s later but the endgame still the same, ninety
Nine to oh three I repped that gold and green, playing
Classical jams in the wind symphony, but the
Music of Wagner and the pieces by Copeland never
Moved me the same as play in stadium stands talk is
Cheap sound is real. When we step on the field, instu-
Ments bringin’ heat, we punish turf with out heels, and a
Routine inspired, by Earth, Wind, and Fire, We
Tryna groove tonight as the trumpets get higher, from the
Fields to jamborees to handle cross town rivalries, I get the
Squad hype by crankin’ notes to We Ready, Ain’t No
Play in GA, followed by smokin’ on hay. Splittin’
Ear drums and souls cuz our swag is so cold. Our
Band was nice, we cut with musical knives, combining
Classical precision with ATL vibes. The ener-
Gy we command, with music penned by my hand, under-
Standably made my love of music expand.
Prepare for a musical fanfare.
When it comes to this music, it ex-
Cites, it delights, it ignites, gets me
Hype. When it comes to this music, ah
Ah. When it comes to this music.
When it comes to this music, it ex-
Cites, it delights, it ignites, gets me
Hype. When it comes to this music, ah
Ah. When it comes to this music.
Once again I let the inspiration hit in oh
seven oh nine, I redefined, my
Preestablished musical paradigm, cuz I
Wasn’t just a player or a music rearranger but I
Had the makings of a musical originator. The
Capactiy to Picasso on a track. Painting
Musical canvasses that seem abstract until you
Analyze the deconstructed parts and find a
Deeper story in a complex art piece.
Increased beats L.Dot emcees over
Late night pancakes and omelettes with cheese.
Strings like raindrops my heart stops each
Time Hazel sings with my beat as the backdrop
Gave a beat to Reo and we called it Raw, cuz the
Beat and the bars made haters clench up with lockjaw.
Khamaa came along and we did some songs, about an
Insecure lover and a love gone wrong.
And this is my musical love song.
When it comes to this music, it ex-
Cites, it delights, it ignites, gets me
Hype. When it comes to this music, ah
Ah. When it comes to this music.
When it comes to this music, it ex-
Cites, it delights, it ignites, gets me
Hype. When it comes to this music, ah
Ah. When it comes to this music.
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5. |
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It’s not enough to be good, when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to be great when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to get by, when we’re descended from kings, when we’re de-
Scended from kings, when we’re descended from kings.
It’s not enough to be good, when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to be great when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to get by, when we’re descended from kings, when we’re de-
Scended from kings, when we’re descended from kings.
Fresh off the boat, their freedom taken away, Sweat
Blood and tears is the price that they paid.To
Be in a land they didn’t wanna be in, they black
Skin a sin, they sold again and again. Sam is
Splittin up kin, and he’s sellin’ they babies.
Colonizers think they only good for slavery. But
They know the truth, within a distant land. That
Power resides within their bound and bloodied hands.
It’s not enough to be good, when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to be great when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to get by, when we’re descended from kings, when we’re de-
Scended from kings, when we’re descended from kings.
It’s not enough to be good, when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to be great when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to get by, when we’re descended from kings, when we’re de-
Scended from kings, when we’re descended from kings.
My ancestors knew who they were, even as the new
World had an image they preferred. Fast forward to to-
Day and the image the preferred of the negro and the
african is treated like the good word. History is
Blurred with the musings of the hateful and the ignorant.
Black and brown minds being faced with disfigurement. And
Spirits under threat of dismemberment, remember this:
Black is divine, don’t let em steal our shine
It’s not enough to be good, when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to be great when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to get by when we’re descended from kings, when we’re de-
Scended from kings, when we’re descended from kings.
It’s not enough to be good, when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to be great when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to get by when we’re descended from kings, when we’re de-
Scended from kings, when we’re descended from kings.
We build futures that they dreamed
Reaching heights they’ve never seen
We rise lifted
On their wings
We’re their children
The children of kings
It’s not enough to be good, when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to be great when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to get by when we’re descended from kings, when we’re de-
Scended from kings, when we’re descended from kings.
It’s not enough to be good, when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to be great when we’re descended from kings, it’s not en-
Nough to get by when we’re descended from kings, when we’re de-
Scended from kings, when we’re descended from kings.
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6. |
Turn-up Life (Prelude)
00:36
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7. |
Turn-Up Life
04:39
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Pull up to the club, quarter past
Nine, had to come early cuz I hate standin in
Line. Fresh and feelin’ fly and I’m catchin people’s
Eyes, either cuz they like my style or thinkin’ I ain’t even
Try. Got joggers on hoodie on vans on
I’m down to get lit if I’m comfortable.
Headed to the bar, don’t make it very
Far, cuz the crowds to thick and I’m gettin’ pissed
Off! Plus twenty for a drink, it was fifteen last
Week! Had a whole bottle of whiskey I could drink right by my
Sink. But its okay its a vibe and the mood is
Kickin in. Spent the week grinding clockin Out and in.
So i’m all about the turnup as the dj starts to
Spin. Oh that’s my jam and it…..nevermind.
Cuz the dj switched it up before I lost my mind.
Matter fact it ain’t a DJ it’s just spotify.
This is for my people that gave up on the turn up. People
Fightin’ hard to stay awake till the sun comes up.
Getting worn out by that energetic blitz, till you
Ask yourself, should I even leave my couch for this?
This is for my people that gave up on the turnup. People
Happy to be on the couch instead of the club. Watchin’
Must see tv with a blanket on your knees, sippin
Whiskey, eatin wings, doin’ anything you please.
Crew steps inside now its finna get live. But
First we gotta catch up on everybody’s lives. How you
Doing? What’s new? My lifes improvin’ how bout you? How’s the
Baby? New investment? Hate your job? Got a boo? The
Music made it hard to hear but we tried any way
Then our focus shifts to how long we gon’ stay? What we
Got to do tomorrow that warrants leavin’ early? Plus the
DJ won’t come on till it’s close to eleven-thirty. We
Set our mind on midnight and we find a spot that feels right. But
Not right on the dance floor near a table and a door. So we
Have something to lean on while we dance with arms and hands and we
Have the easy option to leave earlier than planned. We
start to get into it and the DJ is a hit. Bumpin’
Songs with 808 kits its impossible to sit. But
After 30 minutes of pushin’, jumpin, and shovin’. We
Saw our energy shift to bummin’ and doin’ nothin’
This is for my people that gave up on the turn up. People
Fightin’ hard to stay awake till the sun comes up.
Getting worn out by that energetic blitz, till you
Ask yourself, should I even leave my couch for this?
This is for my people that gave up on the turnup. People
Happy to be on the couch instead of the club. Wait
Wait wait...what am I even doin’ right now? Seriously, where’s my couch.
This is more my speed, cuz all i really
Need, is peppermint diffuser mist and lights of blue and
Green. Bougie pshhh please, I just know my ener-
Gy, I do turnup but need three days of recovery.
Couch lookin’ at me like a long lost
friend, thick and thin, I depend on this upholstered
Cotton blend. The sanctity of home, my
very own kingdom and my very own throne.
No need to feel ashamed of the emperor’s new
Robes when I walk around alone.
Like my own fairground of amusement.
Watch a movie, take a nap, or make me some music.
Or maybe drink some wine, and dine. This
New adult turnup, it suits me, just fine. A
Long day end a long week. Instead of clubbin’
I do this for me.
This is for my people that gave up on the turn up. People
Fightin’ hard to stay awake till the sun comes up.
Getting worn out by that energetic blitz, till you
Ask yourself, should I even leave my couch for this?
This is for my people that gave up on the turnup. People
Happy to be on the couch instead of the club. Watchin’
Must see tv with a blanket on your knees, sippin
Whiskey, eatin wings, doin’ anything you please.
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8. |
Force of Nature
06:17
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How can I own the ocean,
Tell me how can I hold the sea,
If it was in my capacity.
I’d try, you’d see. The
Depth of your being to me.
Is past what I can hold humanly.
The warmth of your energy.
Envelopes my soul so fully
Whats in our future to be
Love and Deep intimacy. Or
Riding the waves of ecstacy.
Whatever it is, I’m ready.
Will you be the moon to me.
Push and pull on my heart strings
Reflect all thats good in me
Be a force of nature that makes my heart sing.
I do see my life with you.
Plant my roots grow something new.
Rain or shine we’ll make it through
Cuz I know my sun shines, brighter with you.
How can I move a mountain, Tell me
How can I count the sand?
It may seem like a lot to withstand. But I
Will, and I can.
A life of one million demands.
Is easy if near you I stand.
Take life from good to grand.
With the honor of having your hand.
Love that forever expands. Like the
Stars in the sky above the land.
My heart is yours to command.
Cuz I know in my heart, you’re a part of my plan.
Will you be the moon to me.
Push and pull on my heart strings
Reflect all thats good in me
Be a force of nature that makes my heart sing.
I do see my life with you.
Plant my roots grow something new.
Rain or shine we’ll make it through
Cuz I know my sun shines, brighter with you.
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9. |
Role Model
04:49
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WHen I was young you’d carry me,
Safe in your arms I knew I’d be,
Strength and protection, love and affection
Were mine
As I grew up you guided me
Clearing the path so my feet felt free
Free to move boldly, no hidden toll fees
To confine me.
I grew up, thinking that I had to be your
Had to be your Biggest Fan, but on the
Day you passed away, I met the rest of the
Fan Club
Some you inspired, others just admired
The way you were wired, your kindness they desired
It made your fans inquire, did I grow up to be
Just like you...I said
He’s my role model
He’s my role model
I follow, your Actions, your
Words, and I’ll Always remember
Forever humble
Gentle and peaceful
I’m grateful, to live in a
World, where you left your impression
In your last month I carried you
Praying your body would renew
Giving you smiles when, deep down inside I
Cried
As you dozed off for the last time
I told you stories on my mind
Hopeful my voice would, keep your last bedtime
Away
I grew up, thinking that I had to be your
Had to be your Biggest Fan, but on the
Day you passed away, I met the rest of the
Fan Club
Some knew your brilliance, others your resilience
Your spirit and your presence, the power in your essence.
It makes sense why, I’d want to be just
Like you
He’s my role model
He’s my role model
I follow, your Actions, your
Words, and I’ll Always remember
Forever humble
Gentle and peaceful
I’m grateful, to live in a
World, where you left your impression
Rejoice
I say again rejoice
Rejoice
Though you have not seen him, you love him
And even though you do not see him now, you
Believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy
For you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your
Souls.
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10. |
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Honor our purpose, every
day that we live.
See deep inside we all have
something to give.
See God’s wisdom when you
Trust in your hands, You
Don’t need the plan, to cre-
Ate something grand
Purpose
fill me
dreams come
through
I am ready
to re
ceive you
I will leap out on faith
I will show up to fly
I will live in my purpose
each day that I rise
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live.
When I felt weak, you re-
Minded me, I’m strong.
My inner voice said, take a
Beat and find your song.
Seen your struggle, to embrace, the
Fullness of your worth.
Don’t think, just breathe, and when you’re
Still you’ll shake the world
heart is
open
hands are
Too
I am ready
to believe
in you
I will leap out on faith
I will show up to fly
I will live in my purpose
each day that I rise
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live. Hope that we live.
HOPE that we live.
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.ponder Oakland, California
Wannabe superhero. Passionate music producer and artist experimenting across musical genres: hip-hop, trap, pop, funk, electronic, and soul.
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